Reflections on a Birthday

Today is my birthday, and I am 52 years old. While that may seem rather ancient to some of you, those close to the same mark (or above it) will regard it as surprisingly young…as I do myself, most days. ๐Ÿ˜‰

However you view the number, there’s no denying that 52 years contains a significant amount of living. As I sit here writing this and looking out the window at the morning, I can’t help but reflect on some of what has passed through those years. Growing up, falling in love, moving across the country, getting married, the births and raising of three beautiful daughters…the deaths of both my parents.

It is here that my breath catches and I pause.

My father was the age I am now when he was diagnosed with cancer 20 years ago. He was 53 when he died. And yes, he was still a young man. A very young man. His death at such an early age has influenced me greatly — mostly because it was such stark, undeniable proof of our mortality. Time and again over the last 20 years, I have been poignantly aware of how very short and precious our time here really is. Never more so now that I’ve reached the age of my father in his own last year.

I think it’s going to be an interesting year for me…a year, perhaps, of reflection and new appreciation for all that I have. Oh, it will still be insanely busy — with a daughter moving to Newfoundland, two books coming out, a to-do list as long as both my arms, and all the other little things life will almost certainly throw my way, how could it be anything but insane? But I think, too, that it will be a year of moments. Moments where I stop to breathe, to pause, to capture the smaller things so that I might hold them close in my heart and mind.

Today is my birthday. Already the colours outside my window seem sharper and the coffee tastes richer as I take the time to notice them…really notice them. I wish I could share the day — and so much more — with my father.

But then again, perhaps I already am. ๐Ÿ™‚




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22 responses to “Reflections on a Birthday”

  1. Laura Byrne Paquet Avatar

    Lovely post, Linda. And lovely photo! Happy birthday. ๐Ÿ™‚

    1. Linda Avatar

      Thank you, Laura! ๐Ÿ™‚

  2. miki Avatar

    Happy Birthday!

    1. Linda Avatar

      Thanks, Miki! ๐Ÿ™‚

  3. Reanna Avatar

    Happy birthday, Linda! Thank you so much for sharing this with us today. That picture is truly beautiful. Enjoy your day! ๐Ÿ˜€

    1. Linda Avatar

      Thank you so much, Reanna — I’m glad you liked it. ๐Ÿ™‚

  4. SharonS Avatar

    lovely picture ๐Ÿ™‚ Happy Birthday! I was told “old” is 20 years older than you are now . it is true, when I was 20 I thought 40 was old. Now that I am into my 40’s it doesn’t seem so old…

    1. Linda Avatar

      I know, right? It’s the most amazing phenomenon. ๐Ÿ˜‰ (And thank you!)

  5. Dawn Avatar

    Hi Linda and Happy Birthday. Thank you for being so honest with your thoughts. It hit home for me as I too am having a birthday in a few days and am close to the age my brother and Father were when they passed. They too were younger than most. Amazing the thoughts and realizations that brings. Thank you for putting into words what I have been thinking but unable to voice fully. Now I will look at each day differently and with more appreciation. Have a wonderful day and know that you are thought about with love. XO

    1. Linda Avatar

      I’m so happy to have touched a chord with you, Dawn. Thank you! ๐Ÿ™‚

  6. Hafsa I Avatar
    Hafsa I

    Happy Birthday Linda! Every age has its own different view of the life and the world around us! So true the way you feel, it sparks the common feelings flows with around same age and life experiences!

    1. Linda Avatar

      Very true, Hafsa — and thank you! ๐Ÿ™‚

  7. D. D. Syrdal Avatar

    Happy Birthday! And best wishes for a fantastic year(s) ahead!

    I’m so sorry you lost your dad when he was still so young. I lost my dad to cancer when he was 61, and I was 23. I can’t tell you all the times I’ve wished he was still here, or had lived to see his grandchildren. Well, all we can do is make the most of the time we have.

    1. Linda Avatar

      Thank you, D.D. — and ((hugs)). ๐Ÿ™‚

  8. Heather Avatar

    Happy Birthday! I had just turned 40 & my Dad was going to be 65 when we lost him. Somehow its these moments that they are missed the most. I think about him lots still but days like birthdays & anniversaries & those other moments of ours that are made more special by the people we have around us. It is during these moments his absence is noticed and in my heart, his presence felt. Always and Forever.

    1. Linda Avatar

      Exactly, Heather. Hugs. ๐Ÿ™‚

  9. Christine Avatar

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY Linda! Such a beautiful reflection. May you continue noticing the many gifts in your life. Enjoy this day and may it be the beginning of a most awesome year.

    1. Linda Avatar

      Thank you so much, my friend! ๐Ÿ™‚

  10. Diane Avatar

    Happy belated birthday! I turned 60 this year and yet somehow it just didn’t feel like it to me. Yet on mornings when I have some troubles I”l turn around and say I’m old!!! My Dad just turned 90 and we’ve already almost lost him 3 times in the past 10 years but he’s still with us, lives on his own and drives his car. Life is good!

    1. Linda Avatar

      Thank you, Diane — and I agree. Sixty is VERY young! So glad you still have your dad with you…treasure every moment! ๐Ÿ™‚

  11. Paula Cowan Avatar

    Happy Birthday Linda!! I’m a day late but hope it was awesome. You have the same birthday as my Grandpa and one of my favourite cousins. No wonder we get along so well!!

    1. Linda Avatar

      Thanks so much, Paula! I’m honored to share a birthday with such important people in your life. ๐Ÿ™‚

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